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And I've been avoiding all the drama, been a good boy. Thank you. Try to avoid all the bullshit and just.

And that feels really, really good. I have this bigger thing. I filmed, for example, but I I'm going surfing after this and I'm.

And that's what made me successful. But I didn't necessarily feel more successful because of it, I guess, is my point.

And yeah, I look back on my 10 years on YouTube and it's been a wild ride and I would do it all again in a heartbeat.

At least that part had kind of peaked. You know, what am I going to do with more? I don't know. Felt like I was growing the channel just because.

Because I'm a different person now because of it. I look back on everything that we've done and I'm super proud of it and and it's amazing, but.

But it didn't feel right to quit just because other people, especially when so many people were still being so supportive, you know?

But maybe it would work out and just remembering how stuck I felt back then to now where I just feel so free.

Enjoy having fun here and and making the most out of it and not stress about what the next upload is going to be all the time.

Even though I wasn't feeling good, I knew I would be fine. But I remember how stuck I felt at that time. Just doing.

I don't know big channel or big character. And so instead, I try to just focus on, yeah, what was fun about YouTube, which is really at its core just to share stuff with you guys.

I I just wanted to really say thank you for that, for making that possible.

I I know this sounds kinda like I'm complaining. I'm just reflecting, really. So two years ago I said I was gonna retire, and that confused a lot of people, 'cause I still uploaded videos. But The ...

I think if I realized that if I had 100 less subscribers or whatever, or thousands less, I would still feel just as accomplished and just as proud of myself so.

I think when you do it for such a long time, it comes with the price of, you know, letting some people down because they prefer a certain type of content. And there's always going to be expectation...

I'm so grateful for all the memories and experience that I had so far, but The thing is, I don't want to do it again.

I'm still here. Post credit. Hey, guys.

Is it time? Yeah. What? Some things never change.

It really took up all my focus and energy for such a long time really.

It'd be the perfect thing. You know? We moved to Japan, and so they lived happily ever after. It's funny, 'cause I even see comments kind of like begging me to quit. Like, bro, just quit already.

It's expected of you to do so. You have to keep pushing your YouTube channel, keep growing, keep seeing those numbers go up, you know, because that's what's expected of you. But just realize, like,...

Keep trying to push the channel to grow more and more and more all the time. Wasn't doing anything for me personally. I wasn't getting anything out of the money or the recognition or the fame.

Kind of peaked. We've tried so many different things, done so many different things, and I just yeah.

More gaming, but to me those things are just not stuff I'm personally that into anymore. I mean, sure, I play still play games and I'll always enjoy that and there will always be that in the channe...

Not quitting. But yeah, two years ago when I decided I was going to quit, it was because I had gone through so much drama at the time.

Now let's technically learn a good track. You know, I was in university. I had my career path laid in front of me. I knew.

Praying 'cause it wasn't even a job back then, really. For gaming channels at least.

Shallow to always upload that kind of stuff. I kind of feel the same way about shorts to be honest. They really just feel like distractions and.

So yeah, I just really appreciate you guys sticking through all the changes and I I still do try my best, but I really, really appreciate all the understanding and support.

Something I didn't want to do whatsoever, so I was just doing YouTube hoping.

That I don't wanna sound preacher or anything and for the future I just wanna keep doing videos the way I have been doing, sort of this tempo at least my first year in Japan. I really just want to.

That's never the that's at its at its core. That's never why I got into YouTube and felt enjoyed it so much to begin with. So that's why I'm still here. I still enjoy sharing stuff with you guys an...

Then I started looking back on why I started YouTube or when I started, you know, I was in Sweden. I was living in all alone.

There's been a lot of changes on the channel lately, so I I figured it made sense to do kind of an update video on looking on the past and and where the channel is now and where it's going in the f...

Try to enjoy it the best. I can not focus too much on the results. And YouTube actually started to become fun again for for the past two years. And that's when I realized, you know, why should I qu...

Wants them to go up and I would stress out over every single upload I got into really bad habits. I got out of them anyway, but.

What else do you want? And I get it, it just it makes sense, right? But the awkward part is.

What I meant was I just want to do YouTube the way I did it when I started, which was for fun. Believe it or not, I didn't do it to become this.

What's the point of keep always trying to push it, you know? But I would always just keep trying to grow the channel as best as I can. You know you, the views are there and everyone wants.

Which I've kind of shoved in your face. Me and Martha moved to Japan, and I feel like, you know, on the topic of quitting, now would really be the perfect time, you know my channel.

You know, I don't have that much time. Been spending my days just enjoying Japan, really. But also, looking back on a lot of my content, it just feels so lame. Doing videos, talking about drama tha...

You know, I had decided I was gonna quit YouTube about two years ago. I just wasn't sure how to go about it. But in my mind, I was so sad on it.

You know, I just realized I was so addicted to YouTube at that point and it was all I really cared about.

You know, I'm ready for new experiences and different things. I think I realized at that time that you know.

You know, it hasn't always been perfect, but I do feel like I've gone through a lot of scrutiny as well, and the negative would just outweigh the good at at that point.

You know, making choices like that. Sorry, it will just be a little longer.