My Dinner with Andre (1981) Soundboard Edit

A language, as in the Polish forest, where language wasn't needed.

A little tiny room that had once had tools in it.

About going off to Tibet or doing God knows what

And crossing them off the list

And he said, “This is a pine tree.”

And I got a fortune cookie that said “Don't go”...

And I mean, I have I have a list of errands and responsibilities that I keep in a notebook

And I mean, if I were gonna go on a trip on an airplane...

And I remember watching people preparing for this evening.

And I think it's time that I was caught and tried the way he was.

And I think that in order to create that language...

And I thought, that Well, you know, it's been a day of coincidences...

And I'm just very dubious about the kind of person who would have lived his life...

And it did include the Tibetan swastika.

And it's not just a question of individual survival, Wally..

And it's their feeling that there have to be centers now...

And meanwhile we're starving because we're so cut off from contact with reality...

And of course, Pan was afraid of terrifying him...

And she was sort of cradling me in her arms, and then she started to cry too.

And somebody who's asleep will not say no?

And suddenly everything freezes

And that my whole life had been a sham...

And the only way that I could think of to find out...

And the point of it was so that you would then all be able to experience...

And the Southern plantation owner who's got slaves?

And then again, one by one, one at a time, we were led out.

And then at dawn...

And then he's gone.

And then I felt these pieces of wood being put on me.

And then last winter, without, uh, thinking about it very much..

And then the stretcher was lowered into the grave...

And then we had an enormous feast, with blueberries picked from the field..

And then, at a certain point, I realized I'd just gone for a good 18 years unable to feel...

And there's Chiquita, there are the children..

And they've all learned from the pilot there's something wrong with the motor.

And under Exupéry's, it said that he was an artist...

And when I allowed myself to consider the possibility...

And when I call him Jimmy, then he becomes a child, and I'm an adult..

And when I met him at Findhorn, he said to me, “Where are you from?”

And when I was at Findhorn, I met this extraordinary English tree expert...

And, I mean, I just I just don't know how anybody could enjoy anything more..

Anything could be true the statue of the Virgin Mary..

Anyway, after about an hour of this wild, hypnotic dancing...

Because the great danger, he felt, for him...

Before we went off to our forest.

But I mean, giving yourself over to the unconscious...

But in a way, these are all attempts at creating a new kind of school..

But she really thought the flag was awful.

But then something had happened to André.

But there's no wife there.

But, uh, I really felt that I had a new name.

Chiquita goes absolutely white and runs out of the room and vomits

Debby and I will step outside, we'll go to a party or something.

Doing these unbelievable massages, you know.

Grotowski and I found ourselves sitting opposite each other in the middle of this whole thing.

He had literally developed himself, Wally...

He said, “I think that New York is the new model for the new concentration camp...

Huh.

I I didn't know what to do. I mean, I just couldn't do it.

I feel I've just squandered my life.

I mean, in a way, I felt on stage.

I mean, in other words, there was no question...

I mean, it would just be a log

I mean, it's really amazing. It's just unbelievable.

I mean, science has been held up to us as a magical force...

I mean, things don't affect people the way they used to.

I mean, uh, the other person's, uh, face could just turn into a great wolf's face..

I mean, when I was in Israel a little while ago

I mean, you can afford to do it, so you do it...

I mean, you know, they know their own lives and relationships...

I mean, you like to be comfortable, and I like to be comfortable too...

I think I do know what really disturbs me about the work you've described..

I'm expected at the table of André Gregory

I'm reading Charlton Heston's autobiography

If you express them directly, everybody goes crazy

If you're just eating out of habit, then you don't taste the food..

In fact, I sometimes think that my secret profession...

In other words, uh, there's something in me that makes me read it...

Is full of nothing but shocking sexual events, and terror, and violence?

Is probably just a way of letting ourselves off the hook...

It was almost overwhelming

It was pretty cold.

It's one of the most ancient Tibetan symbols.

Leaning against a crumbling old building and sobbing.

No, you know, the truth is...

No.

Now, the actress playing Agawe absolutely refused to do it.

Obviously, something terrible had happened to André.

Of course, there was no makeup, and there were no costumes...

Oh, waiter? Uh, I think we can do without this

One of the people decided to bring her very large teddy bear, you know.

Or the fact that the shirt goes well with the tan.

Or to somebody we were very close to.

See, I think it's quite possible that the 1960s...

So I went there. I mean, it is an amazing place, Wally.

So it takes two hours it's horrible to eat your lunch.

So that he could push on his fingers and rise off out of his chair.

So that is what has really led, I think...

So, at a certain point It may have taken an hour to get there, an hour and a half

That I'm sort of sharing this stage...

That it was real stuff

That makes you nervous.

That the way to make life wonderful would be to just totally...

That we don't know what's going on...

That would be simply simply so weird, Wally

That would somehow solve everything.

That's right. It just builds up, uh...

The first blush of a romance goes, and that's the way it has to be.”

The people at the Public Theater didn't see me.

The whole point, really, I think..

Then of course there's no problem

Then you're not really living.

They would have thought we were dangerous animals or something like that.

Things just very rarely go haywire now.

This flag flying over us...

Was I supposed to be a doctor, or what?

We We're just going around all day like unconscious machines...

We wanted to take All Souls' Eve, Halloween..

We were searching for something, but we couldn't tell if we were finding anything.

Well, I mean, Wally...

Well, it just doesn't matter what you perceive or what you experience.

Well, they had their own reasons for putting it together

Well, you know, I just started flashing on on on death camps and secret police.

What do you mean exactly?

What you're doing, in fact, is you're asking those same questions...

Whatever nonsense it is

When I finally came in, Debby was home from work...

When I walk into that building.

When I'd known André, he'd been at the height of his career as a theater director.

Where we become confused and frightened..

With with with this starving person in Africa somewhere..

Without having any particular thing that you were supposed to be doing

You can really feel that you're on firm ground, you know.

You feel for a moment that you've got your hands on something.

You know, 'cause this had happened to her very, very recently.

You know, as we were saying before..

You know, every day, several times a day, I walk into my apartment building

You know, Gordon Craig used to talk about...

You know, so really we hadn't been working very much.

You know, the question is whether the theater now can do for an audience...

You may only be helping to deaden the audience in a different way

You see, that's why I think that people have affairs.

They're reading all these self help books

You call them fauns, don't you? I thought a fawn was a baby deer.

'cause it would have driven them crazy.

'Cause, you see, I think that people today are so deeply asleep..

“40 ******* women who speak neither English nor French

“They don't all play the trumpet or the harp, but they all play a musical instrument.

“weird creatures appear.

“And so they exist in a state of schizophrenia..